My writing is grey/green...to match the colors of the outdoor environment today. Independence Day...I wish there were more things from which I was independent. I don't want to feel this way anymore. And I wish that I wasn't alone today. Two more nights until I'm awake all night. Maybe this month will be different.

I am extremely tired today...much like yesterday with similar amounts of pain and similar blood sugar readings. This is not a fluke. It's real...I am going to have to test, take pills or insulin and count everything I eat. I had just gotten away from that. I always thought "Wouldn't it be ironic if I got diabetes after working in the diabetes department?" Do not think these things--ever.