No church today

I got up to got to church today, and by the time 11am rolled around, I wasn't ready--I felt awful, and bagged the whole idea and went back to bed. I slept for 6 hours--and really slept--not just dozed--hard, deep sleeping. Even in my worst of tireds, I haven't been like this...not for three days at least. Tomorrow I have PT at 7am and then I work from 1pm-7 or 8pm. Probably not the best idea, but it's how things worked out.

I felt like such a heathen today--couldn't get to church--angry--sad. It seems like I was just starting to know who I was, and now I have no idea anymore. I don't think I am bitter, but I have been told that I am.

I want to feel better. I want to be a better person.