I am tired of being tired and in pain...and obviously tired of not sleeping at night. My brain is racing right now. It is (would be) my parents' 32nd anniversary this weekend. My dad is spending the weekend with my brother and me, but things seem very different somehow. Things are very different. I wonder if Dad and Cindy have an anniversary yet. It doesn't really matter to me--not yet anyway. I just hope that if they get married that they don't have a summer wedding.
My hands and knees are aching badly this early morning. Yesterday, I was trying to figure out what to wear to Vanessa's wedding...I really want to wear these bright green and white shoes with a white layered islet skirt and a bright green top. I know I need to wear a dress, but I'm so afraid that it will be uncomfortable on my skin.
Mostly I just feel stuck....in grief...in illness in lots of things. I want things to be better now, but I know I have to wait.
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